Intense Introspect

It’s easy to see, only after having an actual diagnosis of ADHD in the family (understanding, watching and living it), the ‘why’ in my life.
Why I made some of the decisions throughout my life. I look back at when I was a teen and young adult , and I’m more clear on why I did what I did and said what I said. I’m rather embarrassed.
You see, we tend to think (process) differently as we have an eschew sense of logic.

And I’m not referring to just the typical youth-based learning process that everyone goes through. Everyone of us has made our share of great decisions, and we have our idiotic ones as well. But I’ve been going over things that have happened because of this twisted view, separate and sometimes inclusive of decisions made based on our environmental layout. And I’m talking about the ‘nurture’ in nurture vs. nature concept. Already, my having ADHD speaks for the ‘nature’ portion. Wading through the nurture part is so incredibly hard to focus on the thin line between nurture and the skewed perception offered up by having ADHD.

The easiest way that I can explain this is: by observing my two kids that deal with elements of growing up, maturing, and when ADHD dominates their decision making.
When an instance presents itself, there is this obvious point where you are thinking “what the heck are you thinking”? You’re looking at ‘stubborn’ and thinking ‘stupid’ (most common word people reach for) I get it! I’ve had people call me that all my life. And the thing of it is…it appears to be just that…like you haven‘t a brain in your head. That you have not "gotten" anything that was said to or shown to you. Then, as if to defy everyone (logic) you go and do or say it, anyways.
We have that damn thing (our brains…and yes, we have them) going a mile a minute, and we over think things or over simplify things. Totally glossing over the point, the truth, the logic. It isn’t an intentional act, though some folks tend to think it is (lack of patience and comprehension of our predicament). I can’t say that I blame anyone for relying on that as their only (though misguided) perception, but it’s the biggest problem we face. And we’ll find ourselves frustrated and/or constantly explaining or ‘justifying’ or actions to people.
I am reminded of a movie that I just watched, again, (great movie) “we are the Titans”. Where they depict an ideal of whites not wanting to befriend, understand, reach out to blacks because of a simple misguided fear. Think back (or present) to this, and see how it crippled the possibilities to bridge a gap and become more about a beautiful world, then a singular being. The more we understand each other the less we are just about ourselves and that small existence.
I am not sure that I want to involve myself with someone that doesn’t go beyond themselves to understand others. That is going completely backward in life, rather then forward. And I am all about forward (I get enough backwards). (ADHD joke)

Ooookay..so, I got a tad off track. Back to the past, and my thoughts on stuff done and said.
Here is another observation: Most of my errors, and that which I‘ve observed in like-ADHD’ers, is that these are largely harmless. Non-intentional. Most of these have effected us, and our progress. I’ve not noted any ADHD-based “thinking” being about malicious intent. On this, I feel good…save that for socio and psychopaths. The things I am thinking of generally make us have made an ass of ourselves, or go to that place where others think we’re “stupid”,

I am pretty much thinking that “stupid” is the person who doesn’t extend themselves to understand others.
Ignorance breeds fear, fear breeds anger.

When we make an ass out of ourselves, laugh with us not at us.
Remember the last time you made an ass out of yourself.
And WE look “stupid”??? J